Good-bye 2010, I think I can safely say that I am not to sorry to see you go. You had it hard in the beginning, following on the tail of the Hubby getting seriously injured at work that cut his pay in half, a hospitalization for Devlin, the car dying and the entire family coming down with a dose of the H1N1 flu at the end of 2009, right there were already in the hole with you.
It wasn’t fair, but we were hopeful that there wasn’t much lower you and I could go.
Man, were we wrong!
You brought another hospitalization, this time it was for myself when I caught a bad bacterial pneumonia and then got an infected lining of my lung. Hubby got a permanent job that didn’t involve driving when the doctor said he was permanently disabled due to his injury, sadly it didn’t come with a pay raise, it didn’t even reinstate the pay he lost due to the injury. But he’s not really trained for anything other than driving, so he took the job offered him.
Due to Hubby’s cut in pay and my not being able to work due to illness and of course the constant condition of Devlin’s disability, we weren’t able to pay our rent and of course we were evicted and we moved into my Mom’s house in August.
We’re still adjusting, it’s sometimes a joy, sometimes a horror but that is life with family.
In October there was another illness, this time our Husky Skye came down with an infected uterus and had to have it removed. The surgery cost more money than we had an we had to surrender her to the Humane Society, we had no hopes of getting her back so when they called and said that she was refusing to eat or drink and that she was pining for us, and perhaps did we want her back our hearts went from wallowing in the garbage heap to soaring in the clouds. It was the highlight of the year for us.
There were good times too, the kids doing well in school, everybody having their health come the end of the year and of course there is the fact that my Mom was able to let us move in with her.
Of course there were many more good times, but they are just the times the little things that nobody takes a huge note in, playing games with the family, going to the zoo with the family and just hanging and having good times.
2010 saw an almost stop to my blogging. It’s hard to write about your life when you feel that everything sucks and that all that you’ve accomplished is gone into the trash. You are at the bottom and self reflection makes you feel like a pathetic loser and you don’t want to visit self pity land so you avoid writing about yourself, but then there’s the problem that if you don’t write about yourself what else do you write about because all the crap going on is consuming your every thought?
All my hopes and dreams are tied up in 2011, mostly because what other choice to I have? But also because I really want this year to be an improvement for a change. I understand that no year can be blissfully perfect, that there has to be the good with the bad. I’m just hoping that this upcoming year will have more bad than good.