What’s the most recent pleasant item you received for free?
That’s a tricky one, because Christmas was just a month ago, and that means that pretty much everything that was under the tree for me free because they were gifts, and because my family are awesome they were all beyond pleasant. There were new outfits, slippers, cookbooks, and all of it was wonderful. The Husband got me tickets to see Cats before it left town (the musical, not the movie and it makes me sad that I feel the need to make that distinction). I’d been dying to see Cats since I was 13 years old and it was a wonderful experience.
What do you wish to be free of?
Depression. Anxiety. Panic Attacks. I have no control over these things, and they wash over me like a giant wave, that pulls me down in the under tow. I had a panic attack the other night, I woke up gasping, feeling like I couldn’t breathe and I don’t even have any idea what triggered it, because I was fast asleep.
What do you wish to be freed from?
Fear and doubt.
What’s something you could do so you’d have more free time?
Well that’s the rub in my life right now. I’m not lacking in free time. I’m home with my son all the time since his graduation. I spend time doing some stuff with him during the day but by the evening he’s done with me. He wants to just chill and have some quiet time, relaxing and watching TV.
That leaves me alone, with free time once my housework is done.
I guess the real question for me is how would I add more quality to my free time?
I have been reading a lot, but I think I need to actually do something with myself.
I’m thinking that I need to go back to some of my hobbies that I abandoned. Art. I used to draw and the past few months I haven’t even picked up a pencil to doodle, let alone draw and I can’t remember the last time I held a paintbrush in my hand.
I’ve also been thinking of returning to my crochet again, but my problem there is that the projects I want to do, need the purchase of yarn and I just can’t justify spending the money on that when there is other things to spend our money on that’s way more important.
I’ve also been thinking of taking up the piano again, my son got a keyboard for his birthday and I’m sure he won’t get mad at Mom if she starts to teach herself again. I took lessons as a kid, and then I was fooling around about 10 years ago. I’ve been listening to a lot of classical music lately and it reminded me how much joy I had playing my violin as a kid, maybe the piano can bring that happiness to me.
Kat is a 20 something girl stuck in a 40 something body. Mom to 3 kids, tormented and amused by 3 crazy dogs. Amateur photographer, self taught crochet junkie. Thinker of crazy thoughts. Where do they come from? Who knows where thoughts occur, they just happen!